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Your Time by shadeofjade, literature

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Your Time

Your time. So important to you. And Me. It dictates my life. It makes me sit desperately close to my phone, waiting for your voice to reach me. It makes me alter my schedule, as I check for signs of your existence. I sit wondering what you're doing. Where you're at. Why you're gone. And it's all on my time. Your time. It controls my emotions. Makes me feel weak and dependent. Makes me feel reckless for being so stupid. And wasting my time. Your time. Because it's all about you. And your convenience. And your need for affection. And for someone to talk to. And sometimes that's me. Sometimes. On your time. Your time. Mak

Washed Up by shadeofjade, literature

Forever by shadeofjade, literature

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Forever

Softly, your hand rests behind my head Holding it up, protecting me from the world Sweetly, your other hand brushes the hair from my cheeks And catches all the tears that fall from my bitter eyes Lovingly, you kiss my hand softly And tell me I'm beautiful Honestly, you stare into my eyes deeply And tell my you love me Truly, I look up at you, feel your love And know that you're the one I want to spend the rest of my life with

Another day by shadeofjade, literature

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Another day

This fast-paced chaos of everyday life Gives way to stress, sorrow, and strife Each new day shows humanity's fall And how ugly it turns when backed against the wall When looking close, you'll see the conceit And if you don't, you're filled with deceit The decisions were made for self-justification Being ahead in life takes pre-meditation To stomp on, wreck, and push your way in Without remorse for even one of your sins The darkest part of our lives is this It's love, happiness, and freedom we'll miss

Off Balance by shadeofjade, literature

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Off Balance

Racing through the darkness My heart beats out of track This noose I've tied is slipping Yet I still choke on the slack Another night in this prison Another night in hell Only shadows trap me here In my mind they dwell Memories of a haunting past Doubts and fears grip the future Insecurities of a once healed heart Rip apart the seams and sutures I'm screaming now, but it goes unheard Just resounds unendingly in my head These screams turn into whispers Imploring I was dead To end this silent struggle That lashes out in misery I'll silently slip into the shadows And pray you'll remember the better side of me...

I've realized by shadeofjade, literature

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I've realized

Your grim goodbyes Never satisfy These longing eyes So I cry Your soft comfort Never does work When I'm feeling hurt I could die Your lack of regret Often leaves me upset Do you ever forget It's me you left? But the look in your eyes Leaves no disguise It's you, I'll love for my life When these cold winter days Seem to fade hate away I see clearly for a change Through this pain Through this distance Through this heartbreak I've realized... I've realized you're here for me too I've realized you were always by my side I've realized you will be with me always I've realized...how much I love you

The Next Chapter by shadeofjade, literature

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The Next Chapter

Quietly, he left the room. His hands were trembling uncontrollably as he shut the door behind him. He couldn't bare it any longer. Dropping to his knees outside the door, he began to do something he had not attempted in his life before, he began to pray. "Dear Lord," he whispered. "I know I've been so wrong in my life. I've never come to you before, even when I knew I should have. This isn't for me though. I need you now, and you are the only one I know can help me. "Please. Please, please, PLEASE----" He began to sob uncontrollably and lost his nerve. Leaning now against the wall behind him, he opened his bl

Overcome... by shadeofjade, literature

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Overcome...

This darkness overtakes me, melting my insides, wrenching apart my soul piece by piece. It was never supposed to be like this, this horrid nightmare that is now my life. It was all supposed to be so perfect, so simple that I would never even have to think about my life. I would just live day to day in this numbing bliss that moved me onward in time. It always seems as if the plans we make were meant to be destroyed. This disease devoured me and here I am now, alone, miserable, and defeated, just how I was always meant to be. This disease, the ultimate dissolution of my life, developed in my own simple mind. It lived there

My disguise by shadeofjade, literature

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My disguise

Behind these Jade eyes Is a weak defense The faint, fading glimmer Doesn’t show the walls crumbling Behind the layers of color That are so distracting And keep you mesmerized The Jade color fades away And deep inside is A cold, faint whisper Longing for your touch For peace with you again For your heartbeat Where each repetitive sound Beats for our love For us Behind Jade is a Silent heart Numb to the loss of feeling Feeling nothing but longing Longing and loneliness Writhe against each other And create a horrid grinding pain Deep inside the heart Creating a void of numbness As the days drag on And the void deep

Dysotopia by shadeofjade, literature

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Dysotopia

The resonance of his voice Hung heavily in the sticky air The room was silent Yet my head was screaming Screaming for silence In my world that's crumbling apart Now it's over He's gone and I'm here Desolation is mine As a lustful glance took him over And betrayal came to me Crystalline sparkles fall away from Heaven And coast down my cheeks Into pools of self-pity and hate The world is hers Because he was my world And now it's crumbling apart

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Your Time by shadeofjade, literature

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Your Time

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A Hearts Haunting by shadeofjade, literature

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A Hearts Haunting

These silent dreams come creeping in Enveloping the soul The quiet put downs and ignorance Finally take their toll These dreams are full of hope and light Thoughts of something more Rebellion shows its face at night A never ending war Step up to the fate and stand Relentless and ever true Now is the time to make a change For the brave are far and few The darkness will cast its shadow now And forever to the end Unless a soldier stands his ground Not trying to pretend Stand tall! Take the fight at hand Overcome the atrocity Remove these shadows over your heart Or life may cease to be...

Fate by shadeofjade, literature

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Fate

Dark fog surrounds my broken soul As I travel through these blackened woods There is no path to mark the way No light for evil things in hoods I stumble over fallen trees That try to grab me as I go I still continue through these woods So that someday I may know The truth, the light, the reason why We live life day by day I travel through these downcast woods Until I see the way A small faint glow just up ahead I run until I see A beautiful rose that's glowing red So pure it cannot be Was it fate that brought me here right now Or was it all by luck? I stare at its sparkling mysteries Its secrets I can't untuck Clouds break

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Childhood Memories by apock93, literature

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Childhood Memories

Pixy Stix and fire flies climbing into tree fort castles where everyone rules their own worlds no walls to hold us in no clocks to set a limit no boundries to where we can go to the ends of the earth we shall sail fierce dragons we shall slay new worlds we will discover oh the memories we had where logs were giant snakes and trees stood up an walked oh those childhood memories eating Pixy Stix and catching fire flies God Bless these Childhood Memories.

Night by Danteholic, literature

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Night

the hills gasp at our breathless movements of flesh and shadows beneath the scattered darkness of prophetic trees our bodies husked and ripe pinned in our wrestling to the hasty growth of the slopes the corn of your teeth summons blood to my surfaces the earth groans underneath the fevered death of our hurried kisses and black cloaked whispers until we are sap(ped) and stir secret-like in the breezy stillness of night

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Homesick by musicmage, literature

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Homesick

It hurts so much that I can’t sleep. Tossing the blankets like salad twisting them like tiger tails and then collapsing against my pillow in agony has replaced my sweetest dreams. The temperature can not decide plummeting, then climbing rocking my body with icy chills then making me sweat like a soda can. And I can barely breathe because the tears choke like a hand around my throat strangling me so that all they could hear are strange sounds suffocated by my pillow but they’re not listening… because there’s no one here to hear. Far away from my home lost in the unfamiliar walls that surround me I am torme

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Eyes by shadeofjade, visual art

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Deviant for 17 years
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Current Residence: nebraska
Favourite genre of music: alternative/emo/rock/punk
Operating System: xp

Favourite Visual Artist

Hard to choose, so many good ones out there.

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

the used, mcr, tbs

Favourite Games

silent hill (I love them all!)

Favourite Gaming Platform

x-box

Other Interests

Cross country running, reading, writing, HALO!

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shadeofjade

Apr 4, 2011

Life

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So, I'm writing.  Sometimes, it amazes me why life chooses to go where it goes.  Things are so different and sometimes a burst of creativity is great for figuring things out.  If only I could ignore the callings of the daily demands to pursue these bursts more often...  Oh well.  I'm writing here because sometimes it feels as if there's no clear alternative to turn thoughts to.  So maybe just rambling them off into space will help?  Who knows?  Just feeling rather blah with things/life in general lately and can't seem to get out of this feeling.  I should be happy.  I should be living life.  I should probably not be wasting away on here, some

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shadeofjade

Jan 9, 2008

It's been forever!

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Hey guys! I know, I know, it's been a long time.  But, I'll try to be on more often.  Anyways, completed my first semester of college! W00T! :dance:  I ended up getting A's in everything (barely!), so I am starting off my college career with a 4.0!  :D Work's going well too.  I hate working so much, but gotta pay the bills unfortunately. Christmas break has been fun.  I got to see my family and spend time with everyone.  It's nice to have some time off from school.  This first semester was Sooooo stressful.  Still gotta buy my books for next semester though, which starts Monday.  I should probably do that soon. Other than that, not much i

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shadeofjade

Nov 14, 2007

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Hey all, Well, felt like time for another update.  School is going well, the semester is almost over (FINALLY) and my grades aren't looking too shabby.  I just got a 97 on one of the biggest papers of the semester, so I'm feeling pretty good at this point. Also, my boyfriend is back!  :dance:  I've been so happy lately because of it :D AND, I got a new job, one that pays way better than the place I'm working now, so I'll have some damn money again! Yes! Other than that, hope you all have a happy Thanksgiving.  I'll just be glad because I'll get time off from school :D --Jade

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sisumagoo

Aug 18, 2011

The Doors & Nine Inch Nails, eh? interesting...

shadeofjade

Sep 28, 2011

lol, yeah. It's good stuff.

Thank you for the favs, btw. Kind of you.

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southernskills

Dec 10, 2007

hey, just wanted to see how ur doing, havent seen anythign added in a while, which means im misisng out on some great poetry

shadeofjade

Dec 13, 2007

hahaha.

I'm doing okay. Just been super busy. My first semester of college and I've lost any time I've had at all to write. Sorry. I've actually thought about closing my account because I don't really have the time now to keep up on it, but I'll wait and see how things go for a while. How are you doing?